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Constructive criticism is important in the world of writing. Criticism is hard to take for most people. I am no exception. Even if you disagree with what is said, or perhaps the tone wasn’t too nice, you have to take that criticism and find the lesson to be learned in it. I like feedback on my work. I like to know where my strengths are and where I need to pay more attention. My ultimate goal is to be a published author on the shelves in book stores, libraries and homes around the world. And I cannot accomplish this goal without having readers. I write for me, but I also write for them. They are the ones who will ultimately determine my success or failure as it be. At the same time I do realize that I cannot please everyone. Every author has their own writing voice, their own style. It is easy to get lost in the story; easy for our brains to move more quickly than our fingers. So, I need that feedback to point out these things to me so I know what to look for when I go back to edit.
Tonight is my last night chairing the Scout Committee Meeting as the Group Commissioner of our section. This is bittersweet for me. I am moving forward in my life towards something my husband and I have wanted for some time now. To do so, I have to let go of some things. Like, my Scouting Group. I have been a part of this Group for about five years; first as a Scout Leader and now as the Group Commissioner. The dynamics of both roles are demanding and oh so fulfilling. When I was a Scout Leader as I was so stressed out with having to arrange all of the activities that would give my Scouts the necessary skills they required to go to an event for one week that involved Scouts from around the world. I was proud of the youth and myself for all the hard work we put in and all of our accomplishments. I see these boys in the neighborhood and they still call me Scouter Rachel. When I left as their Scout Leader it was easy only because I knew I was moving up to be the Group Commissioner. I was still able to watch these youth grow into responsible and respectable people. And they have not disappointed me. There was a huge learning curve for me to be the Group Commissioner. First, I hate speaking in front of people. Even in front of our little committee of 10 people makes me super nervous. I think two months ago was the first meeting I chaired where I didn’t feel that stage fright. Second, I am one who doesn’t like to ask things of others. I have this mentality that I should be able to handle it all myself. Well, the truth is I can’t. And I shouldn’t. And the best part is, they don’t want me to; they want to help. This year I have been really good at accepting help without the guilt. This committee of adults all have the same goal; to help the youth of our community develop into responsible and respectful members of our community. To teach them necessary life skills and having fun at the same time.
My brain must be busy with everything going on. I have been having strange dreams and seeing fleeting shadows. It is the strangest thing to me. I really think I need a notebook by my bed or something to write the dreams because I don’t always remember them in such great detail as I did the one this weekend. And that is great story material I would hate to miss out on! I thought about trying interpret what it meant and when my husband gave me a little tidbit to the meaning, I decided that no, I don’t want to go there!
One last thing for today. Wish Lists. I remember when I was little my mom always got the Sears Catalogue at Christmas and each of us kids would take turns looking through it and writing down the things we wanted. Not really sure why as we never did get any of it. But it was fun. Well, I still kind of do this. More with the Ikea idea book or just by making a list from many sources! Right now I have two, maybe three, things on my list. The two definite are a FitBit and a treadmill. My maybe, a MS Surface.
Do you have a wish list of things you would like to buy?
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